I don't know why it is, but everything enters more
deeply and doesn't
stop where once it used to, 
I have an interior that I never knew of. Everything passes
into it now, I
don't know what happens there...
I am learning to see. Yes I am beginning...
It's still going badly, but I intend to make the most
of my time.

Joan Mitchell, Lady Painter. A Life by P. Albers.